Change of geograpy is the easy change. I was wondering what happened to you and I am glad that you're free and safe. Get out of your mind because your addicted brain is manipulating you. The addicted mind leaves you unable to reason with yourself. Can you be a person of action and enroll in the classes you need and get to the mtgs.? Put one foot in front of the other to do the things that will make your future how you really want it to be? Just some questions to ask yourself and maybe motivation to get up and get going.