Talk to your mom + counselor and tell them about your struggles and using. Ask them for help. Instead of hiding it from your mom, share your struggles honestly so that she can figure out how to get you the recovery program that you need. If your life cont. to go off the rails it will be hard to turn it around. I know bec. my 23 yr. old son who was a high school football player and in the gifted program with college acceptance lost it all due to drugs. He is 23 and struggles. He is NOT the same man he would have been bec he is an addict. Don't let this happen to you. If only my son had come to me his senior yr. of h.s. and asked for help, just maybe, he'd have a different life now. Instead he kept his drug abuse a secret and then it progressed to addiction.