Too new.... too confused.... too everything
I'm 17. I spent 6 months NOT sober. From December 2006 to May 2007 I was doing coke everyday. I was doing DXM everyday. I was smoking weed everyday (multiple times a day).... drinking every day. I basically didn't want to be alive. Then May 11th I got caught by my mom... sent to my dean at school... tested... and then sent to drug therapy. But I've slipped up 3 times...... since May 11th my mom's caught me drunk. I still say I've been clean for almost 2 months... because I have. But I definitely haven't been sober. I have a lot of **** going on in my life... mainly my dad abandoning me.....but not abandoning my two sisters. It's hard to explain. My mom's boyfriend pushed me last Tuesday night and I can honestly say I never thought that would happen to me. I just wish I could stop slipping up and ******* things up.... for my mom's sake.... she doesn't deserve a daughter like me. Someone please, please help. I'm losing my mind.