Hi, Barbara52. I understand where you're coming from. When we get sick and tired of being sick and tired, when we've nagged, begged, pleaded, and exhausted ourselves we let go and leave. What you are doing is saving yourself from going down with the ship, and that's an act of self-love. I wish you the best in finding a place where you can live in peace and serenity. You have made a wise and courageous decision.