Originally Posted by
Empty Cartridge 
This is a very emotional thing for me. Admitting that I have a problem is no small thing, as I am sure that many of you can relate to.
I am tearing up as I write: I want to get better, and I know what I a doing is killing me. But I have a near-compulsion to drink. I do not want to die and my family to say "We had no idea."
I found going to AA very liberating in removing my shame about my drinking.
For a time the only place I felt comfortable in my skin was at an AA meeting. The folks there have walked a few miles in my shoes... they got it... they didn't judge me... they just wanted to help... and them being there did... The forum is great but going to a live meeting... although a bit more intimidating is much better...
I will keep you in my thoughts...