Thanks for your messages, I have started logging on to AA online and visiting that everynight. I havent been to any face to face meetings though.
I think your right that i was probably always anxious (when i was at school say 11 i used to be very anxious and v thin) so it probably has been masked by drink since i was 16. If i think its healing it self as barb dwyer said it may help me relax about it. I might also look into hypnosis or Cognitive behaviour therapy. thanks all amelie