About 6 weeks into my XABF leaving I went thru similar. Dang.. just lets get all this OVER with.
This is about my HP having a different time schedule for me than I have. Fact is, we often argue about the time frame for my recovery cuz I wanna hurry this up will ya GEEZE!
I am not good with patience.. give me a horse to train or a cat to work with or a dog to teach things to and I can take as long as I need. Comes to me learning, growing or getting better, HA! Patience is out the window.
There was a thing about 4 year old's on line a long time ago. It had to do with rules of 4 year olds:
1.) It is mine. You can't have it.
2.) I want it NOW.
3.) It's BROOOOKEN.. but its still mine.
4.) OK, you can have it to fix it... NO. I CHANGED MY MIND! GIVE IT BACK TO ME NOW. YOU can't have it EVER.
5.) unless you fix it NOW before I wake up because it is MINE......
6.) and do it NOW....
yeah.. that is recovery for me. I want to make it mine. I want it now. NOW I TELL YOU.. NOW!
*sigh* long way to go... LOL