Welcome!
I think that there is a conflict in the mind of addicts because the addict voice is very demanding. My suggestion would be to stop thinking so much about the future and do what you need to do today to not drink. Focus on the moment and how to stay sober now. You're right that will have to make some difficult decisions if you want to stay sober - such as friends and job. Trust that you will make the right choices when the time comes.