Its interesting--you mention how your friends said they liked the "old you" and you werent that bad...sometimes I feel like people saay that because they dont want to feel like what they are doing is wrong. By making the choice to NOT do something that your friends do, that automatically gives them the impression that you think what they do is "wrong." But honestly, I dont care what people do, I just know that it is probably wrong for ME. Eventually, I will get hurt or hurt someone else. I envy the people that can have just one drink and stop. I dont really think, or at least I am beginning to realize, that I am not that kind of person. I cannot stop myself when I am in a social setting, and most of the time, it ruins the social aspect of it because I am more focused on the drinks or the drugs than the people I am with. I want to be a better person, a better friend, etc. Drinking, for me, will not help me to get there, and I hope my friends will support me.