Sweetie, don't let him get ya down,you are sucha strong woman and yau already know all to well this is why you are not with him.
As hard as it is to lnow they "never loved" us we have to let that go.
My heart goies out to you as I have felt thi spain myself.
Go look in the Mirror and see what beauty is in front of. You and I and many others here are LUCKY to be rid of them