Embraced I'm sorry you are going through this pain. I just went through this earlier this week, except for my ex-abf is in recovery (1 year this weekend). At the same time though he told me he pretty much just used me to make himself feel OK...so I too was just a pawn. He claims though that he came to very deeply love the other woman even when she started out as someone he was again only using to make himself feel better. I'm hoping that this too will serve as the final piece to allow me to finally heal and move on. Hugs to you.