Sounds like his addiction has won this round. I am sorry for the pain this causes you... really. I am codie enough to wish I could just sit with ya over a cup of coffee and give you a hug and tell you it will all be ok.
But I can't... not because it won't be ok, but because I can't make you feel better... that will take time and processing what it happening and what this means for you.
Each time I take an action and receive pain, I have to think about what actions I can change, and whether I am really ready to MAKE those changes. Sometimes the answer is yes, sometimes the answer is no.
But I have yet to have those big hurts without a lesson attached. Some of this stuff I just had to walk through in order to learn something.
My prayers to you are for strenght and wisdom and comfort.
(((liesagain)))