I've often asked that same question alldatoys. I'm just like you in that I cannot just enjoy a couple of drinks and leave it at that. I do know that I have been sober for 6 days now and have never felt better in my life, just with this forum and a lot of commitment to ending my misery. As far as AA, I haven't tried it this time, but I'm leaving that door open. It seems to have worked for countless people.