i'm not really angry either, although i wish i was. you're right, not being angry allows you to be vulernable... and for me, it means i keep getting sucked back in, and it sucks. i just want to be angry because i think it would allow me to move on.
maybe you don't really think you deserve to be mistreated, but you've just gotten used to it... without it, you're left wondering what exactly you DO deserve... even though it's far different from what you've gotten in the past. if that makes sense
