Where's the anger
I am wondering where the anger is??
I still feel fear- mixed feelings of sorts that I cannot really pinpoint- insecurity, emptiness, etc.?
ABF has been in rehab for a little over a week and we have not spoken. He wrote me a letter that I received on Monday that did not say much.
I been doing okay- attempting to weed out the irrational thoughts, trying to move forward. I feel so much resistance, so much fear holding me back and just wish the anger would come. He has done so many things to me and hurt me so deeply- I WISH I could tap into the anger as it makes me feel safer and less vulnerable. Not sure if this makes sense.
I even feel angry at myself for NOT being so engraged at all the lies and distrust. I don't know where it is...