me i have been off and on with my addict for about three and a half years. i have never stopped loving him. i had to leave him about two years ago and move far away from him (ny to Fl) was the only way to get some of my sanity back.
you see i couldn't watch him hurting himself without throwing myself in the way of him hitting rock bottom (in retrospect of course) i honesty just couldn't take it any more. i couldn't stay, it was just too hard for me (so i thought).
i have been going to meetings for about a year or so since the last time he relapsed. i realized that he will always be an addict and that i will always love him for the man he is when he is not using. but his addiction is not mine to own. i have my own recovery to work on.
my loved one was an addict way before i ever met him. he has been using some form of a drug/drink since he was about 15 he is going to be 33. everyday he is clean he is beating his addiction. everyday he is working his recovery he is beating his addiction. but he has been clean since late oct early nov.
the one thing about recovery it is worked best in today. you don't have to have a time schedule to make any decision whether to stay or go. you will know what is best for you; when it is best for you.
going to meetings and having a face to face conversation with someone can really help. my group has been so helpful to me and i would be lost without my sponsor. keep coming here and learn as much as you can about addiction and your own recovery.
my best