I did the same thing
I feel ashamed too...its so hard but I believe we CAN beat this....we HAVE to...I called my dealer because my boyfriend was away and I was scared to be alone and I didnt sleep till 10 am..i feel terrible now and I wont use tonight...Ive had one clean night this week and I ruined it last night but tonight I try again....I find watching some good films and eating "fat" food helps a little......Im still looking for other things I can do to stop me using