Today I did not cry (yet)
Today was the first day I did not cry when he left.I did not beg,or get mad.I did not stand there and listen to his lies.He said he will be back,and he will when he can't get any more drugs.But for the first time I was able to clean the house(really good),and I even cut the grass! I did not sit around and panic,I think I was able to do this because thanks to all of you I know others feel what I feel.But I still love him,want him home,and I did think of him while I did all this.But this time I was thinking of him but not crying,not panic! Maybe I will be ok,(as long as he comes home) Thanks all