Hey Pickle,
I know that feeling...edge of a cliff. You either jump off or turn round and change course. Sounds like you've chosen the latter. It was not quite 7 months ago I felt exactly as you did. I went to AA...it was the soft, supportive place I desperately needed back then. I was broken and needed the guidance of those who had been just where I had. I've hit a place right now that differs from what I needed then...it's an awesome, educational, adventurous and harrowing journey; this thing sobriety. It's growing up...finally. I wish all the best. I'm so glad you found some English speaking meetings. I'm hopeful you will find the community of support so neccessary to our recovery.
Bright blessings friend.