Sista,,,
Let yourself FEEL,,,it will put things in perspective for you,,,,,,
"Nothing changes if nothing changes"
When I first left my A, that was my mantra. Constantly reminding myself that unless I made the first step in change, I would go through my life, "twisting" and turning about his drinking. Trying to "save" him, and catch him when he falls. He's a BIG guy, I'm a pint, it was getting to hard to hold him up.
Now, when I think of that saying, I can not apply it to me anymore
I've been successful in creating the change. Am I all the way there?!?!? Heck NO. BUt I'm practicing and getting better at it every day.
Ummmmmm,,,let me be bold here and say SO ARE YOU!!!!
Nothing changes if nothing changes
now applys to my A
He told me this weekend something I said has been resonating through his head
"The world around you is moving on, but you are staying the same"
Our A's are going to be left behind.
I find that very, very sad. And yes, it makes me cry. But,
I didn't cause
I can't control it
I can't cure it
Grieving process. Its been said many times the "stages" of grief don't follow any order, and stages can be revisited at any time.
Sounds to me you had a visit from sad again
It's ok, let yourself FEEL it so you can heal
You did good Sista,,,,
And from this native hippie chick and her spirits we're sending you,,,,,,
PEACE