CW... I'm sorry for what you went through.
And i still don't have all the answers to why life
is like that.
My father is still drinking and he's having healty
problem and all the insanities that comes along with that.
the insanity that was pased on to me.
Yeap..I know that feeling will..i love my father, but I hate
him or the things he's done to me or the way he stills
treats me.
I always told myself as i was growning up. I didn't want to
anything like my father..but I found myself doing the samething.
Luckily I was young enough.
never that less..it hurts and it hurts like hell, when it hits home.
" I can't change anyone except for myself"
it is also that anger that I have, that I use to stay clean and sober. I don't want to be like my father..
i have to do that first..stay clean and sober so i can work
through all these other stuff. Everyday that I stay clean
and sober is everyday I can chalk up as being more and
more different from my father.