when I read the book for the second time..........it clicked for me..........this is whats wrong with me!!!
I actually called my dad and asked him if he knew what it was (he reads alot of psychology and self help stuff .for fun)
and did he know that was whats wrong with me and how come he never told me............
he said yes he did know but it wouldnt help to tell me........I'd need to find that all on my own
And I have just still not so sure how to fix or change it.