Yeah...there doesn't seem to be an actual "fixed bottom" I've realized it just goes continues to go down, down, down. I'm tired of "testing" that/ myself. I don't have control over alcohol as much as I would really love to.
And I realized the fact that I envy people who do have control just reenforces the fact that I need to steer clear! Again, Thank you everyone for your resposes. I'm looking forward to staying sober and getting out of my own way!