Ok..Now you guys got me tearing up.
I did alot of thinking today.
Alot of inventory of myself and past related events and where they led.
Alot of thinking of how my decision is going to affect me later on.
I want to come clean...but cant find the courage to do so.
But then I really dont because I am almost positive I dont have to.
In other words they do not have evidence.
That is what I am struggling with.
Do I tell on myself for nothing..or stand my ground and more than likely walk away free.
It's hard.
I do want a clear conscience. But I dont want this affecting my future.
With the new job..my recovery..my reputation and my integrity.
I did wrong. But some people just dont have sympathy for the circumastances I was under.
Meaning the job people.
Still doent make it right.
I have alot more thinking to do.
It was no big deal tonight. Just asked for a public defender and have to go back at a later date.
I did not make a plea yet.
I will just need to think alot and get some legal advice and see where I go from there.
I appreciate all of you.
And even tho I may not like what I hear sometimes.
I am always willing to hear the good..the bad ..and the ugly.
I just gotta really look into and pay attention to what is really being said.
You know me...Reaction is my first defense.
I found a therapist finally that specialises in substance abuse.
I go see him Tues.
I think that will help me alot too.
Thank you all for being unconditional and so accepting.
I really need that in my life right now.
Lots of love.