I owe you all an apology
I have to admit. I got very angry and aggravated at some of the responses I was getting to my court thread.
For no other reason than I felt noone was undrestanding why I was making my decision and supporting me on it.
I felt like I should feel. Ashamed and sorry.
Every one of the responses were good advice and were the right thing to do.
And it was support..just not the kind I was looking for.
Which was backing me up to basicaly lie.
This board and everyone here has been my salvation from the day I found this place.
And I am ashamed that I felt those feelings toward what WAS support and good advice.
It just wasnt what I wanted to hear.
Thats my fault.
I have been depressed all day and feeling bad that I felt those feelings toward the ones who have been there for me.
Although my decision still stands..I do apologise to all of you.
Whether you knew or not.
I have to be honest about how I felt and that I am sorry for doing so.
Well..Off I go to see what is going to happen to me.
I know I will be back today.
Just needed to clear my thoughts with all of you.
Because I have mad love for all of you and I was being selfish and immature in my thoughts and feelings.