Hey Chiynita,
Meetings are great even for a panic attack-high-anxiety mess like me. The type of people there are people like you and your story will be very similar to theirs. It's amazing how alike we are. Today is my 73rd meeting in row and I can't wait till it's time for todays' . I did not say a word for more than 30 meetings. No one made me feel awkward or outa place. Meetings saved my life.
Good Luck
Love,
Magellan