if you stay clean and sober long enough...trust me, it'll comeback to you.
I think or perhapse..our mind got cluter with BS and all kinds
of problems..it's hard to focus at first when we get clean and sober.
Reading and writing also helps me to retain my focus.
it was a bit tough at first becuase I couldn't read more
then a paragraph at a time without my head hurting or
my mind drifting all over the place.
Writing a journal also help me stay focus but it also
help me to do short term memories of what happened for the day...
Doing the 4th step...that's an excersize in recalling long term memories.
Making a gradtitue list was the first excersize my sponsor
asked me to do...I have to sit and excersize my mind and
put it all on paper. At first it was hard to be greatful for anything.
but eventaully..as I made the list..the pen just started rolling..
my brain is capiable of recalling...
it's just got used to recalling dope dealers #...and the routine of
getting high ...that's all.
These are some of the benifits of working the 12 steps.
Excesizing our mind instead of vegging or trip out all the time..
the principle of recovery is there...
Oneday at a time...five minutes at a time
eventaully to a moment at a time
eventaully to right here right NOW..Be in the moment
Why ?..eventally..you'll figure out...who's in control ?
you..or your head..