Welcome Tangaroo, glad you're here and I hope you stick around.
Your story is not unique, many of us have been there and can relate. The question is, are you willing to do whatever it takes to achieve sobriety? AA can help, it's shown me a new way of life. Whatever you choose to do, I can assure you that dealing with life sober is much easier than drinking it away.
Keep reading and posting, this is a wonderful place to learn and share your experience.