Originally Posted by
SaTiT 
i also had to do my part and be in the moment and focus in the moment.
Bascially trun it over and do whats in front of me.
it was five minutes at a time at first but I became accustom to the
peace I had inside of me.
I work on this now turning him over! After the first time I spoke with him again after gaining that serenity back in my life, it was the same thing all over again-the screaming at me, swearing at me, starting every thing that came out of his mouth with
YOU it was chaos all over again-
By learning to turn him over when I can finally get to this point 100% I will have every bit of my peace and serenity back. I over stayed that ride on the roller coaster and because he is not sticking to his recovery, I need to stick to mine. Besides I really do not like roller coasters! Only the old fashion wooden ones.