Yes, actually I am afraid that it won't work out this time. It just seems different. But when I saw him Saturday (4 hour drive each way), he was sweet and loving as usual, and even held my hand (which he NEVER did before, we're not hand-holders) as we walked and talked. I guess it's just hard for me cause he always talks to me (either drunk or sober) cause he always says I'm his best friend (and he's mine) but now when he talks from rehab, it's brief, it's like I wonder what he's really thinking. And today, he did say to me he didn't think we had marital problems, that the counselor said "you must if you're here and she was going to leave you" but was it really a little hint for me that he does have issues? I just don't know anymore, and I really don't want to answer the phone or talk to him for awhile, but I don't want to screw up his head either, yet I don't want to say anything to screw up his recovery either. It's just confusing this time around. I just don't know anymore.