This is the only place I feel I fit in and am comfortable and I am grateful, I used to use another site but they didn't understand me and let me know they didn't, I just didn't fit in. I don't understand why u are nice to me. ur all goin to hate me, everyone does I must have been real bad and evil. Is it because I hate me that everyone turns on me, doesn't get me. why doesn't anyone like me in real life, why am I so bad, even at school i was a loner, I spent all day on my own and not talking I used to end up argueing with teachers so I could speak, why am I such a pathetic loner, drink and drugs are the only things that seem to be my friend and yet enemy at the same time. I just want to cry and be held, how bad and pathetic. stupid stupid stupid me, stupid jody, stupid pathetic jody.