Welcome roandlan!!! I am glad you are here, no need to feel "weak and stupid" (I know, that is easy for me to say) We were all where you are now, at the beginning, it is a great place to start. Also, you are not asking "strangers" for help, we in recovery are a family, if you are on day one or an "old timer" we are all in the same place...today! I look forward to your posts...
Cathy