Hi..Glad you are here.
Just like this site tracked your first post for so long the people here are just as faithful in support and info.
I know its hard to open up to strangers.That was my biggest problem.
I felt such shame and embarrassment.
Thoguth why am I telling these people that have no idea who I am.
I can tell you it will give a perspective outside the box without the judgement of those who know you best.
Kinda breaks down the barriers.
I hope you keep posting.
More will be along to give more advice than I can.