Chero,
You are going to end up destroying you, unless you stop this craziness, again I say
"No Contact", what the heck is the rush to run back to him? If he stays sober for at least a year, works a program and truly embraces recovery, nothing, and I mean nothing is going to change. He crashed his truck because he was drunk.
Time to take off your rose colored glasses and face the truth, he is not in recovery, he is playing you.