I don't want you guys to think that I haven't been crying and sobbing over this, or that there hasn't been a sneaking idea in the back of my head saying that abf will call me up and say we can continue as we have been in our separate places (very, very doubtful). But it is just that there are suddenly so many other things I see as problematic with the relationship and with him as a person, it is like the scales have fallen from my eyes.
I just look forward to the day when I can honestly talk to my mother about it, then I know I am past it. man, if she had any idea what he was and has done she would FLIP!