Vent away I think most of us here have shared those same feelings. I'm not sure why once they go into treatment and start recovery we are supposed to miracuously (sp) forget all the harm and pain they caused us and our families. Its not that easy sometimes the relationship is gone and totally ruined by the time they realize its time for treatment. We cant turn back the clock and we cant just make our anger and feelings disappear because they decided to change and be clean but for how long? Hopefully forever but its still hard. Have u tried individual counseling for yourself to help YOU get better? Just an option.