DaVinci2

Another day another battle. My wife is out of town, which makes this worse because I think "If something happens and she's not here..."

I was fine all day, but on my way home I was feeling some serious leg pain in my left shin just under the bone around the muscle which radiated down to my toes (Mainly my big toe) and up the back of my leg (The hamstring)...I also feel tender in my calf when I just sit there, but to touch it's fine. I've had this before and always thought it was a mild form of sciatica, especially since it eventually went away. today it came back. A couple of months ago I would've thought "DVT...deep vien thrombosis." This time I had myself under a little more control. Took asprine and hoped for the best. Watched some TV. But the pain didn't go away even while sitting. I'm sure by focusing on it I made it worse. I didn't want to rush off to the hospital (It's 11pm) only to "...come back tomorrow." I will go in tomorrow. BUT...here's what's having me believe more and more that it's sciatica returning: I don't know if anyone can verify this or say it isn't possible BUT because my panic started setting in I wasn't hungry. On an empty stomach I took my meds, including my benzos. 10 minutes later the pain was gone and I'm feeling a bit 'high'...again, I don't like this feeling very much. I prefer the 'normal' feeling. However, this is far better than being panicy. Anyways, since a benzo is a CNS depressent I assume any nerve related pain would be stopped or numbed by the benzo? Or I'm I wrong to assume so? I still feel some mild discomfort, but my mind is more focused on this thread than the pain, and I've got my appetite back.

My one regret is that this had me so worried that I called my morning lessons for tomorrow and canceled (This is one part of this disease that affects my life big time). I was lucky enough to have it moved to next week instead so I don't lose out on money.

Another strange thing is that in 4 days it will be 5yrs on the dot that I had my first major panic attack.