Originally Posted by
SaTiT 
Sorry about that.
you can try looking in ACOA..my father is very abrassive and cold.
very, very simular
I can't be around him for too long. As a matter of fact i havn't seen
him in a couple of months. Breaking the cycle of me seeking approval
from my father was a bit tough. I just had to relize or suffered enough
pain to accepted that the man is encapible of loving me or I was barking
up the wrong tree..
Yes, me seeking his approval. Trying to prove to him that I have changed. That I'm a 'good boy' now. And feeling guilty about not seeing him, when I feel miserable when I do see him. Makes no sense.