kids are bathed and asleep, finally! got to get this bedtime routine down to less than 2 hrs. this is ridiculous. i'm exhausted its been a long day, too many thoughts and emotions. reading what you all said about how when they're sober they make sure we all know by contacting us etc, well my ah does the same thing, calls all day, checks in and all that, so now i'm thinking, haven't heard from all day today and its almost 10pm, what does that mean? so of course i'm gonna give a quick, "how was your day call" to him and within 2 minutes of talking to him i'll know what hes been up to. hope its good but if not, that will suck, more for him than me, but i'll live another day and i will not let it ruin my happiness. ok, now if i just keep saying that over and over i'll actually believe it right? good night everyone!