Thanks Noah..............
Your right, I think taking my time is whats best, mainly because my choices can and will effect his child who lives with us, and right now I am the one this child has to depend on and part of me thinks if it werent for the child the decision would be so easy.......yet I'm a codie I guess-- because as hurt and angry as I am I also worry about AH and what will/ or could become of him even thou I know that what becomes of him is 100% up to him part of me still feels like I could make a difference for the worse actually , almost as if I decide that its over he'll get even worse .............
though the last year has shown me that with me hes worse.............so who knows....
TIME your right!!! I will take my time