First, Welcome to SR!
As to Why? Because it's foreign to you to take care of yourself!
We get so wrapped up in taking care of our As that we forget we need help too!
I think you did a good thing there! Get the help your pastor offers!
And learn everything you can! There are some great articles at the top of the forum page to read! And ask all the questions you can think of!!
Welcome to SR and good job taking that step and seeking help!