thanks palm, i'm really ok though, i'm learning how to be happy alone. won't know how to have a new relationship anyway, don't know if i want one either. life is better for me right now alone, got a whole lot of healing to do.
won't have known that i could be happy alone if my ah had not have went to jail for 2 yrs. life is ok right now, i do have my kids and most of the time, they act like they don't want to go home. i need this alone time, and enjoying it. i still think about my ah at times though, wanting him to know a better way, but i know that there is nothing i can do to make that happen, so i have to let him figure out his own life.