oh cinder, i don' want to even think about all the crap i've been through and the places that i've lived that held such bad memories. once i walked away from my home and didn't look back, grabbed what i could, put it in storage and moved out with no place to go. thats how bad it had gotten for me in this one paticular place i lived in. i had to even think about all the unnessessary drama i've gone through and to think that i may have not even realized how bad it was because i was so used to it being that way until it was normal for me. to think that i didn't see much wrong with my life, so i had basically become content with the addiction, abandonment, and the cheating. man thats sad to me. if i had a weak stomach, i'd be nomiting too