.how do I stop making excuses???
Look at going to a meeting as an 'hour's respite' from everything going on in your life. Sort of a 'mini retreat' where you can leave all the chaos and busyiness outside the door, just go in grab a cup of coffee or tea and just sit and absorb all the good vibes, the smiles, and the great info.
60 days is great, and it is usually a very 'crazy time.' I used the meetings to calm me, and I would always feel refreshed when the meeting was over. I would fill back up with all the 'good feelings.' Many times when called on to share I would pass. I just wanted to listen.
So maybe, just maybe, if you start looking at the meetings as a 'break from everyday life' you will find it easier to go.
Hope that helps.
Love and hugs,