Hi Terri,
I am glad to see you back also. I can only imagine what kind of struggle you are going through right now. It would be very hard for me to stay clean in a situation like that.
I am very proud of you, but as Margo says I think you need to get some kind of outside support in the form of meetings, counseling, out-patient treatment, whatever.
Your right that you will both feel better in a few weeks, and I too know that old story of, "well, I'll just get some more so I can wean myself off." NOT. That is a big lie we tell ourselves.
Keep posting and letting us know how you are doing. You are always welcome here.
Juls