I read somewhere that for every year you are together, it takes about three months of healing. If you think about it, it sounds like it may be true. When my first boyfriend broke up with me I was 20. I was sure that life was over and wanted to die. In fact I made a suicide attempt. The next boyfriend I was with for almost 5 years and planned on marrying him. When we broke up, I knew from my past experience that I would make it. I dreaded the pain, but I realized the only way out was through. I know that pain is not very pleasant. Just look at an addict. Most use to not feel pain. But we codies must work through it without the help of a substance. I know that it is so trite, but time is what you need right now. Sending some prayers that your good days will multiply until the bad ones are only a memory. Hugs, Marle