Livefree, thank you. This whole thing is a new reality. Sobriety, faith in a power greater than myself.. Iam just not sure about anything. I know I cant go back.. IT seems like an easier way out sometimes, but I was too close to dying and to alone to keep going or to ever go back. In rehab they say if you pick up again you start off right where you left off and I was so far into this **** I dont have any more room too go anywhere but down ... way way down like 6 ft.
I just have to suck this crappy feeling up and hope tomarrow will be better.
Knowing this or I should say thinking this doesnt make any of this any better.