Standing my ground is very painful
My son who got into a wonderful rehab was kicked out. It seems that he drove the people crazy. I had to make him leave for my own sanity 3 months ago.
Now that he was kicked out, he has absolutely no where to stay. Not one single person.
He called me crying, begging me to take him in.
I found myself screaming and yelling and getting so upset I was nauseated. I wound up hanging up on him. It seems all he wants to do is make excuses for his behavior.
He has no insurance, no job and not one single penny.
He called back, and once again I found my voice getting louder. I hung up and realized I was getting caught up in the very insanity I made him leave for. I turned off my phone. It's just too much to take.
I hate it. I don't want to fear what will happen to him.
I think he's mentally ill, self inflicted due to drug use.
I can't help him.
I just feel so miserable because of it all.
Why is it that we have to constantly fear the call whe hope we never get?
I would love some encouragement. Thank you all in advance.