It won't happen as long as you don't pick up that first drink.
But I have to say Red, I felt e-x-a-c-t-l-y the same way for the first year or so! Sobreity is so precious! I did have genuine fear - what if I lose this? What if I drop the ball like I did all those times in the past? Why do I think this time is going to be any different?
"This time" was different though. "This time" I had some tools which could help me - like not picking up that first drink, just for today, and letting tomorrow take care of itself. And accepting what the day gave me, even if I didn't like it.
Thanks for your post today Red. You've really helped me to think about how precious my sobriety is. And how grateful I am for it. ODAAT!