The mixed up stories and things at the last minute that catch you off guard and are mirroring how things used to be.
Those last minute changes were my trigger, too. Don't feel bad about the lack of trust, they spent years "training" us to not trust... getting it back can take a long time, too.
I am glad today went so well. These good experiences also add up and help me gain "experiential" knowledge that I can rely on... next time.
((hugs)))